“Addicted”

Caressed by his scent still lingering on my red silk bed sheets. The moonlight seems to peek sneakily through my slightly parted Venetian curtains. Sexual desire surges through my body like lightning bolts on a stormy night. The electrifying sensation is invigorating. Fascinated by the memory of his presence, something buried deep within me has suddenly awoken . Despite the fortress I’d cautiously built to protect my bleeding heart… somehow, someway… this God-like being has managed to breakthrough. Utterly surprised and equally intrigued, I feel forced to surrender. Tempted, yet again, by my relentless inner demons, I shamefully indulge. The ever insatiable craving… the NEED, has brought me down to my knees, once again…

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“What We Share”

What we share

Oh so special

What we have

Oh so sweet

Every time I see you

My heart skips a beat

From the moment we met

I was lost in those eyes

Your feelings kept hidden

Under that “bad boy” disguise

Then slowly but surely

As time came to pass

You let down your guard

And got rid of your mask

You opened up your mind

Set your ego aside

You expressed your emotions

And went along for the ride

You let me deep in your circle

Gave me a piece of your heart

Made me a promise of FOREVER

With a fresh new start!

“Forever and a Day”

I just wanna hold you

Until the morning light

Kiss you on ya forehead

Before you sleep at night

I promise you I’ll never

Let you out of my sight

Because I love you more than ever

And it just feels so damn right!

I never imagined life, with anyone but you

Forever and a day, my love will always be true

There’s nothing in this whole world, that I wouldn’t do

To show you, how very much… I truly do love you!

“One Wish”

If I had one wish, my wish would be

For you to find your way back to me

With every single day that passes

My whole world, just burns and crashes…

If I had one wish, my wish would be

For one last opportunity

A chance to heal, a fresh new start

A moment to mend a broken heart…

If I had one wish, my wish would be

That you’d love me for eternity

We’d live out our lives happily

Fulfilling our true destiny…

If I had one wish, my wish would be

That you’d learn to love wholeheartedly

I’m so sorry for what we’ve become

If only I had one wish… JUST ONE!

“Mistake”

Even blind eyes can see

You are not the one for me

I’ve tried and tried but now I know

There’s no room for us to grow

All the lies and betrayal

Yet you expect me to be loyal?

For no longer will I pretend

That you and I, can make amends

You took every single thing from me

Even stripped me of my dignity

I have nothing left for you to take

This whole thing was one BIG mistake!

“Shackles”

Sad, depressed & lonely

Is how i feel inside

Covered with smile

In hopes it would subside

This emptiness I feel

Has me losing my mind

I just want to feel whole …

Again…..

Just one more time…

My situation sucks

My life’s a complete mess

I know I need to change

But I feel so damn hopeless!

I need to find the strength

To pull myself together

All I want is to be freed

From these shackles Forever!

“Exhausted”

Exhausted

Completely run down

Searching for answers

That will never be found

I’m losing interest

But trying to hold on

They want me to surrender

Before all hope is gone

I feel like I’m ready

But they won’t let me leave

Holding me prisoner

Because I don’t believe

These people are crazy

This place is so strange

Their plan is to brain wash you

And force you to change

I’m fighting a battle

But losing the war

I want my life back…

The way it was before!

“Lonely”

Lost and lonely

I want you and only

Wishing you’d hold me

Won’t you console me

You could have just told me

Quit treating me so coldly

The distance I feel

It’s painfully real

The betrayal you deal

I try to conceal

My happiness you steal

Yet still you appeal

My reality is unreal

Somehow I will heal

Never again will I kneel

The truth’s been revealed

For our fate you have sealed

Sometimes… we do argue

Other times… we do fight

Regardless of the reason

Or who’s wrong or right

All that really matters

Is the love that we share

The memories we capture

And the fact that we care

In the heat of the moment

We may say things we don’t mean

Speaking without thinking

Hurts more than it may seem

If we both make an effort

To remember the pain

As well as the joy

Our love won’t be in vain

So let’s reignite the spark

As we relive the magic!

To fall in love all over

Would make me ecstatic!

“True Love”

I’m so deep in love with you

I just don’t know what to do

I’ve never felt a love like this

Overwhelmed with happiness

Child-like when I’m with you

I just pray our love is true

I lose all sense of self control

Finally able to feel whole

Paralyzed by true loves kiss

Finally granted my only wish

Destiny led me right to you

I hope this path completes you too

I’m so grateful to be THE ONE

Our lives have only just begun!

“Conflicted”

I HATE YOU

It hurts so much

I LOVE YOU

I miss your touch

CONFLICTED

From all the pain

MISSING YOU

It’s all the same

THE HEARTACHE

Breaks my heart

LOVING YOU

Tears me APART

“Salvation”

SURROUNDED BY DARKNESS

SEARCHING FOR THE LIGHT

HOPELESSLY STRUGGLING

WITH ALL OF MY MIGHT

WHERE’S MY SILVER LINING?

I KNOW I’VE GOT TO HAVE ONE

AFTER ALL THAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH

AND ALL THE GOOD I’VE DONE

DON’T I DESERVE HAPPINESS?

AT LEAST ONE MOMENT OF PEACE?

I’VE FINALLY SURRENDERED

WHY CAN’T MY PAIN JUST CEASE?

I’M STRUGGLING TO HOLD ON

HANGING BY A DANGLING THREAD

GASPING FOR A BREATH OF AIR

PRACTICALLY WISHING I WAS DEAD

THE MISERY IS AGONIZING

I’M EVEN TORTURED IN MY SLEEP

BY NIGHT TERRORS OF MY PAST

YOU DO SEW WHAT YOU REAP

I’M BEGGING FOR FORGIVENESS

FOR SALVATION IS WHAT I SEEK

I’VE WRONGED SO MANY,

AND BEEN DONE SO WRONG

IT’S TAKING ALL OF MY STRENGTH

TO MOVE FORWARD AND BE STRONG

I DESERVE MY HAPPY ENDING

I BELIEVE ALL OF US DO

MY HEART YEARNS FOR THE DAY

WHEN ALL MY DREAMS COME TRUE!

“Worth While”

I miss you more than words can express

I’ll probably never love you any less

You mean everything and more to me

I just just wish that you could see

How much better our lives would be

If you let yourself fall in love with me

If I had that chance, I’d hold on tight

I’d never give up without a fight

I’d make your every fantasy

And dreams into reality

Just to see that perfect smile

Would make every bit of it worth while!

“So Tired”

It’s been such a long, long time

I’m so tired of crying

I need a new beginning

Before I end up dying

Life is way too beautiful

To be wasting it like this

Those precious sober moments

Are what I truly do miss

I’m so tired of fighting

I really need to repent

My sins are weighing heavy

Since I became reliant

Never in a million years

Did I think I’d stoop so low

I just want to run away

But I have no place else to go

My life needs some direction

I need some stability

I need to find the strength

Somewhere deep inside of me!

“Best Friend”

One in a million, he’s my BEST friend

Fiercely loyal, passionate and trustworthy to the end

A bond forged by sinnister acts and devious secrets

Both determined to live with no regrets

Cherishing past memories of precious moments together

Wishing special moments would last forever

Reminiscing on quality time spent admiring each other

Holding, kissing and adoring one another.

Patiently waiting until we meet again

Silently wishing our time together would not end.

“One More Chance”

You are my everything

So I would do anything

To keep you in my life

As your loyal wife

I just need some time to breathe

Some time to believe

That I’m worth way more

Than I bargain for…

I am so sorry for hurting you

It’s even worse than deserting you

I made a vow that beautiful day

To love you in every single way

So take me, for better or worse

And lift this terrible curse

I’ll get my life together

So we can live happily FOREVER!

Cause there’s no where I’d rather be

Then with your arms wrapped around me!

“The One That Got Away”

The one that got away

Slipped through my fingertips

I could still feel your tender kiss

Lingering on my lips

My one and only true love

As lost as a runaway

Tears dripped down my cheeks

As I begged for you to stay

Heart filled emotion

Some words left unspoken

Irreparable heartache

Left me heartbroken!

‘Blessing in Disguise’

A silver lining, a blessing in disguise…

Such shame comes with betrayal and lies…

I’m sorry it took so long to realize…

But now you can see with crystal clear eyes…

The truth revealed, as it should rightfully…

After a decade of loving her unconditionally…

Only to be met with infidelity…

It’s about time your heart can mend, peacefully…

“I Love You”

I need your body close to me

While I sip this glass of wine

I want to feel your soft lips

As they’re pressed up against mine

You send chills through my whole body

Each and Every. Single. Time.

You even give me butterflies

At the drop of a dime

I’m flattered by the look in your eyes

Every time you look at me

It’s as if I’m the only woman

Those gorgeous green eyes could see

I love the way you make me feel

Right from the very start

You make me smile inside and out

I love you with all my heart!

“Very First Moment”

From the very first moment

Your sexy eyes met mine

I knew deep in my heart

I’d fall for you in time

Circumstance & negativity

Brought us together

Your strength and influence

Inspires me to do better

Never in my entire life

Had I fallen so hard… so fast

There’s NO doubt in my heart

This feeling, this LOVE will last!

“Bittersweet”

As it seems, the dreadful time has come

Although the fun has just begun

Happy as ever I thought we were

Now those memories are a distant blur

I believed in you and the life you promised us

Insecurity has now tarnished us

Inevitable as it may be

I want you to grow old with me

It’s the only future I can see

Where the two of us live happily

Often I daydream of what life would be like

To live out my days as your beautiful wife

An honorable privilege, I must admit

My newest habit, a love-sick addict

I put so much trust and faith in you

Believed the words you spoke were true

Never, ever imagined any of this

I was blinded by love and happiness

I lowered my guard and let you in

Despite how vulnerable I was Back then

Desperately in need of a change

I missed all the signs, which is oddly strange

Yearning for a genuine chance

At that “True Love”, fairytale romance

Perfect balance between lovers and friends

With a bond so strong it never ends

Days filled with sunshine and laughter

Followed by starry nights of lovemaking after

Our sweaty bodies glistening in the moonlight

A vision of beauty with the stars shining bright

The soothing sounds of waves crashing against the shore

Our bodies wrestling on the sandy beach floor

Falling deeper in love with each passing second

My idea of perfection, I reckon

We should have no time for games

Insecurity and lies are for the lames

Our connection felt special, one of a kind

If only I could press rewind, travel back in time

I’d right my wrongs and learn my lessons

Pray to God and count my blessings

To have a second chance at loving you

There’s not one thing I wouldn’t do!

You mean more then the world to me

My Prince Charming, My Destiny!

NO LONGER DO I WISH TO FIND MY ONE TRUE LOVE

FOR GOD HAS SENT ME AN ANGEL STRAIGHT FROM ABOVE

HOW GRATEFUL I AM FOR THIS PRICELESS GIFT

I THANK GOD FOR EACH CHERISHED MOMENT OF BLISS

EACH NIGHT BEFORE I DRIFT OFF TO SLEEP

I THANK GOD FOR THE PRECIOUS MEMORIES I KEEP

MEMORIES MADE WITH AN ANGEL

WHO I CONSIDER MY SOULMATE

A SPECIAL RELATION TO WHICH MANY CAN NOT RELATE

MY HEART IS OVERFLOWING WITH ENORMOUS GRATITUDE

NOT TO MENTION MY OPTIMISTIC ATTITUDE

ENERGETICALLY DRAWN TO ONE ANOTHER

LIKE A MOTH TO A FLAME, COMPELLED BY EACHOTHER

HYPNOTIZED IN A DREAMLIKE SLUMBER

OFTEN WE WONDER,

WHAT KIND OF SPELL HAVE WE BEEN PUT UNDER???!!!

NEVER HAVE I EXPERIENCED

A LOVE QUITE LIKE THIS

INEXPLICABLE,

A euphoric, CONSTANT STATE OF BLISS.

THE SWEET SCENT OF OUR LOVEMAKING LINGERING AMIDST

HEAVEN ON EARTH,

OUR VERY OWN DREAMY ABYSS

CAPTURED BY THE LOVESTRUCK GAZE UPON HIS EYES

IS ALL IT TOOK FOR ME TO REALIZE

EVERYTHING I’VE EVER HOPED FOR,

ALL MY DREAMS COME TRUE

MY HEARTS ONE DESIRE,

MY SOULMATE IS YOU!

“Missing You”

I’m missing you like crazy

That I don’t know what to do

With each moment that passes

I fall deeper in love with you!

Just the thought of your touch

Could send chills through my body

Thinking of you playing with me

Has become my favorite hobby

I’m simply infatuated

If you left I’d be devastated!

Your love is truly one of a kind

Pure, genuine and hard to find

God only knows what I’d do

If I had one more chance to be with you!